Yesterday Jip had 4 appointments. If you want to wear a momma and her baby out, have 4 appointments on the same day you start a new medication. Our first one was with our Developmental Pediatrician, Dr. Harkins. She suggested a few things that could be causing Jips relatively recent explosive, long lasting and sometimes physical tantrums/meltdowns. She ended the appointment with "you're doing a great job." Now folks, let me tell you something. If you want to bring a high/special needs momma to her knees, tell her that. Those five words strike a cord so deep it's hard for me to put in words. I gave holding back tears my best shot, but it was still obvious I was getting choked up. I sat there and stared at Jip and wondered why God was challenging me - challenging my poor Jip - but I quickly stopped. I learned during my divorce to not questions God's path. He knows what he's doing and I just have to hang in there. We headed home to nap and decompress for our afternoon appointments - Speech and Physical therapy, and our first appointment with a psychologist for Jip. Speech was the second part of his evaluation. Most kids finish within one visit, but not my guy. We had to divide it into two appointments since Jip needs to be redirected so much. She mentioned his "many deficits" so many times I wanted to crawl in a hole. I know she didn't mean anything negative and was just trying to tell me why it took so long, but I just wanted to scream "I KNOW!" I know lady, I know. He had a big meltdown when we finally got home from everything yesterday, and I have to say he had a VERY valid for being upset. Dairy Queen forgot his ice cream.
His meltdowns are so very emotional and super loud. Those tears of his break my heart. He cries the biggest crocodile tears out of the blues eyes I have ever seen. I'm really working on remaining calm and monotone during these times, and it is SO HARD. I've done some difficult things in my life, and this is the hardest, hands down. Hopefully with some changes and efforts from everyone in the house, these meltdowns will lessen over time. They aren't healthy for my boy and we are willing to do anything to help him gain more composure.
We tried to go to a indoor trampoline place today, but Jip (nicely) asked if we could not go. Unfortunately one of the toughest aspects of parenting a child like Jip (I think) is momma friends. I'm sure most people think I'm a massive flake - and maybe I am. I don't want to be, but sometimes I just absolutely cannot make plans because I feel like I am always canceling them. Anyway, I suggested the park to Jip and he and JD really loved that idea. Thennnnnn I realized it was raining. *pats self on back* Way to go...
Que meltdown. Luckily it didn't escalate too bad and I talked him into Story Time at Barnes & Noble (which my generally calm JD acted like a banshee).
Today was my first real attempt at homeschooling. We did about 30 minutes of work, which I know doesn't sound like much. I'm trying to ease into this transition and not force it because I certainly don't want backlash. As I get more comfortable teaching Jip, I hope to start with JD as well. I decided to use Easy Peasy Homeschool which is a free, online, all-in-one, Christian curriculum. Today we studied the letter L. We colored Lee the Lion and circled all the letter L's in the story about Lucy the Ladybug, along with some tracing activies and practiced writing his name.
My sweet JD was a hot two year old mess today and actually gave me more strife than his brother. I was so happy when GAT (my husband [who by the way is 23, NOT 22 as I mentioned yesterday...whoops]) got home because JD had me tapped. out. We had lots of good family playtime, and reviewed our letter L worksheets from earlier in the day.
Tomorrow we're going to go see a play, and I am so SO pumped. I hope Jip likes it. I'll be sure to post about that field trip along with what we get at our potentially very dangerous trip to Lakeshore Learning and Hobby Lobby. Remember to feel free to post any questions you may have about homeschooling or ADHD below. Happy Hump Day!
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